Well, the New Year is here.
The Nook is cozy with the gas fireplace on, but we've been "challenged" by having a poor electrical system that throws a breaker with virtually any load. This makes using our electrical heaters problematic.
The beginning of a New Year is supposed to be a time for comtemplation and hopeful planning. I can honestly say that 2007 was a difficult year for me. I was, if I recall correctly, in six firefights. (Described more accurately, I was attacked by rockets and then did my best to do in my attackers before they could get away. I was sometimes successful.) I was also involved in a few pre-emptive fire mission strikes.
I came back to the United States, which filled me with joy that it's difficult to describe. We should continually strive to make our country a better place, but it IS wonderful, and it's our home. A country is some combination of place, people, and ideals, and I love mine dearly.
I faced the challenges of reintegrating with civilian life, and finding transportation, employment and lodging. I went back to school, taking my first graduate courses.
I tried to do too much. My buddy Matt warned me, but I was superman. And I couldn't do it. Working full time along with a heavy school load and other personal challenges broke me, taking me to my lowest emotional ebb in about nine years.
I'm coming back. I've had to accept some compromises, like being willing to take a loan to handle my expenses to complete my MAT program so I won't have to work full time, and I still am behind on my schoolwork and finances, but I'll do it. I actually have quite a gift for analyzing situations realistically when I let myself use it, and I really can do this. Well.
I have just had another birthday, and I find myself 36, with so many goals still unrealized. This is often a source of frustration for me- I have yet to hold my first child in my arms, and haven't made really decent income since my last year with Nextel before joining the Army in 2001- but I do have friends. Somehow I have managed to find a group of friends more wonderful than anyone could imagine. I have mentors and "laugh buddies" and folks who have my back, and just plain good folk who love me for no good reason. And I love them.
Not every part of the journey is fun, but I'm learning. Thanks for taking the time to share part of this trip with me. Happy 2008.